baseball

What happens when a girl freaks out?
ugh.

what to write.

Not quite silence what i hear.
Darkened blanket kills the light,
but night, sometimes night I fear.
Because ghosts of past,
of regrets,
of achievements unmet,
grieve through my eye shade.
Pushing my legs.
Moving aching hips under covers.
Almost a million people crawl outside the door.
They don't even know,
most don't care.
One breath in,
one out.
Life keeps passing.
Laughter upstairs
that will be there when I'm long gone.
When my name is whispered on the wind,
then forgotten.
A footprint washed away by another coming tide.
Now, though,
the words won't write themselves.
The questions remain unanswered.
Blushing in infuriation,
I am limited by myself only,
so wisdom tells me.
But like the pressure under my vision,
I don't see clearly.
I will wait.
As everything does,
this too shall pass.